I had my first panic attack.
I'm still processing what happened, and I don't think I'm ready to talk about it in length, but I will say it was quite the experience. My poor brother-in-law, sis-in-law, and their friend were witness to it which is all together embarrassing. I've struggled with anxiety for years. However, my anxiety manifests itself in a strange way, making it easy to hide. It had only been a few months since I opened up to Bob, so Friday's instance hit me like a ton of bricks. Something I'd kept secret for so long was not only exposed to new people, it had morphed.
In addition to my panic attack I had the most excruciating neck pain. Luckily, we have a resident D.O. in our small group who made a house call. His assessment put me at ease and confirmed my need to rest. Thanks to muscle relaxers, a heating pad, hydrocodone, and an incredible husband, I was able to rest and we made it through the weekend.
Here is evidence:
|When my kitchen looks like this it means Bob cooked|
Thanks for breakfast honey ;)
|These are the BEST pancakes you'll ever make (recipe). I had them for breakfast and lunch. They are not GF so I paid for it, but man they were good|
|After hours of being on the couch I had to do something|
|We had a bridal shower at a local winery (yes, MO has those. I too was shocked)|
This pic and the one that follows are two of her more frequent "looks"
|One day I may apologize for your ginormous head gear|
It just won't be today :)
|Meet Iron Man|
|At fall fun fest|
|Our adorable nephew in the best monkey costume ever|
|Monday necessities: coffee, flower to cover my dirty hair, and civil war and florence + the machine pandora stations|